Well here I am... My in-home-caregiver is out of town for a week and because of my disabilities I cannot be left alone. Because of my memory issues it is not safe for me to live on my own, not something I ever thought would be my life at 43 years of age!
So since there are only a few, very few people I trust I am in Salem with my "adoptive" parents for the week. Why here? I feel safe here and I don't feel like I'm being babysat!!! I am also going to be put to work around the house to help get things organized. At least this is the "party line." Seriously though, I am grateful that they have agreed to allow me and service "princess" Stella to stay here for the week.
It is very easy, and even as I'm writing, to get very discouraged that I cannot do the things I "used to be able to do." I hate that I forget to turn the stove off! I hate that I need a personal assistant to manage my life and a in-home-caregiver! It is so easy, and I do often, ask God what am I supposed to do now with my life now. It's not actually asking as much as it is, "what the fuck?!?" I had a good life before the war. What now? Who am I now?
I don't know the answer to these and many more questions. But, I like asking questions and enjoy more finding the answers. This is my quest. 

Here we go...

Greetings to those who happen on my blog. I have started this blog to put into words the thoughts that run ramped through my brain. My main focus is to, hopefully, discuss with others what it means to be 1) A combat veteran with post traumatic stress disorder and/or traumatic brain injury, and 2) A soldier in the Army of the most high God.
Just as in the military we get training, use our protective gear and learn how to use our weapon, so too in God's army we have all of this at our fingertips that I believe needs to be learned and used. We are in a position where we as believers in the Most High God are fighting through victory, not for victory. Even so we still need to know how to fight in the Spiritual realm. We, as believers still need training how to use the gear and weapons God has provided for us!